Welcome back! First off, I’m guest posting today over at an AMAZING blog called “Always Alleluia”. You can head over to http://alwaysalleluia.com/ if you’d like to check it out! I found Kris’s blog while on this journey & her words of wisdom & encouragement have inspired me & helped me through some tough days. She truly has a heart for our Lord & I’m so thankful to be a part of her blog today!
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As soon as the next pay period arrived & nothing was deposited in our account I got my first glimmer of “reality”. The money was no longer coming from Jeff’s prior employer as Christ was our new boss. My first reaction was to panic & then I started seeing something every where I went….the word BELIEVE. I first spotted it at HomeGoods. I was in the clearance section (my favorite section!) when I saw a star pillow with the word BELIEVE written across the front. Then on my way to check out, there was a travel mug with the word BELIEVE written on it. Seriously?! Next thing I knew all these secular stores were reminding me to believe. A candle from Marshalls, a white sign from Kohls, a butterfly pail from Michaels, a coffee mug from Burlington Coat Factory! Every time I started to doubt what we did, poof, I’d be faced with the word BELIEVE. I thought it was hysterical come Christmas when it was plastered all over Macy’s shopping bags. Now don’t get me wrong, I KNOW Macy’s wasn’t telling me to believe in God & what He was doing in my life, but that’s how I took it. What they meant to be secular, I took to be spiritual.
Believe….a word I totally took for granted prior to this leap. Sure I believe in Jesus & have accepted Him as my Lord & Savior as Acts 16:31 states: “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved-you and your household. ” But now God was asking me to not only believe in Him & His Word, but to also trust Him & His Word. You know, Mark 5:36: Overhearing what they said, Jesus told him, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.” Don’t be afraid, God knew my heart come “payday”. God knew the fear was starting to come & God continued to remind me not to be afraid, but to believe. I was reminded of these 2 scriptures:
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
As you can see from the pictures above, I literally bought every believe thing I came across, with exception to the black believe sign. My girlfriend April made that for me. I can’t tell you how many times I have looked at that sign & felt God reassuring me to believe. I have all my believe memorabilia scattered throughout my house. I’m glad I do, whenever doubt creeps in & Satan wants to control the voices in my head I see my Godly reminders! In my master bedroom & bathroom, living room, family room, kitchen, it’s all there! That black believe wall sticker you see above, that’s in my downstairs bathroom, right at eye level if you catch my drift 🙂 Just in case anyone visiting needs a reminder too!
So there we were, self-employed, with the word BELIEVE reassuring us as we headed out on our journey. A journey that soon went from following God’s will to then unintentionally following our own. I’ll tell you about that detour next week as I’m continuing on to Canaan.